School makes me sad. And pychologicaly damaged.

You know what? School is depressing, and stressful. It's all I ever think about. Boys. Assignments. Teachers and other students i want to slowly kill while I video tape it and then display in public view all over the world, but NO. I have to lay in bed ill and sore as fuck and whine and bitch about my stupid problems when I should be grateful. I am, but then again everyone else is so fucking insinsere maybe I should try and be like everyone else more for once. Oh I'm ugly, I'll admit it but at least I dont cake my make-up on. I want to be gorgeous, the kind of beauty that doesnt need makeup or straightening irons but no. For me to look half decent i would need my ghd, and a truck load of makeup to look half as good looking as I would want to be. I know theres poverty and homeless people but right now I cant leave home and help them can I? Scrolling past photos of starving children doesnt make me feel guilty. You know why? Because lifes not fair. It doesnt matter what you do or who you piss off but you'll either make an impression or not, then you will die. The end. Thats how it is, and if you believe in heaven thats great. But i've done some awful things so when I die im gonna get fucking blind and fuck some strippers in hell because I can. Are you offended? These are words and you can close this whenever you want to. Dont let a 16 year old girl offend you because I'm sure you have a wonderful beautiful life. And if you dont, work hard and maybe it'll get better. You know, maybe. Anyway, its 11:18Pm and i have had my sleeping pill so im very tired and ready for bed. I would complain more but I'm more or less over it now. Oh and maybe because I feel so awful I might have tomorrow off, why not, #YOLO#SWAG#DUMBFUCKSUSETHESETHINGS#derp